Lately I've been using my 3ds more. More meaning I've been charging it twice a day because of how much I play on it. I always have these phases when I play a lot on it and than abandon it for a while. I think it's normal tho, I have many hobbies, I need to put one of them aside from time to time. It's always nice to come back to my nintendo consoles. Especialy the 3ds. Library of games for this piece od tech is amaizing. 3ds games, ds games, gba, gb. All I could ask for in one place. I've always been a nintedo kid, I grew up using mostly modded ds, n64 my dad got from Germany and his old gb. I got a 2ds at some point in time, playing games limited almost only to pokemon games. But now with homebrewed 3ds I got from my commissions money, I can play everything I can think of. I love spending time with this cute little console.

I started using it everyday last week. I replayed raving rabbids 2. It was very nostalgic. I really liked playing it as a kid. It's easy to get into and also very short to finish. Which is a pity, but it's a mini-game game. So it's nothing surprising. I had fun, punched my stupid rabbid, gave it a pink wig and played it for like 3 days. It was fun.

After that I got into Hatsune Miku Project Mirai once again. I played it for the first time a year ago I belive. I really liked it. I'm a Project Sekai player for a long period of time. For 4 years I belive. Man. I started playing it when highschool started and now I will be starting uni. Anyways, back to the topic. Project Mirai has a different gameplay, but I find it to be very satisfying. It's a game you play with a stylus, tap in the rythm and also tap on the right color. Simple, a little bit challenging at times, fun! I tend to like games that use the touch screen. They are just very fun. I still haven't played through all of the songs, but I did so last year so I don't feel a strong urge to do that. Instead I focused on mastering Romeo and Cinderella song. It's a song I've known since I was a kid and also has a very fun map in game. I'm still far from a full combo in this song, but I will keep on trying!

And third and last game I'm playing right now is Pokemon Rumble World. I've known this game since I was a kid, because it was a freebie in nintendo e-shop. I really liked playing it. To the extent of me having like 90 hours in this free game on my old console. Crazy! Pokemon are really cute in this game and I always found the gameplay to be fun. Going to an island, fighting with other pokemon that had random chance of dropping so you could use them. Very engaging if you want to complete the pokedex. I basicaly fell into a gacha hell. But I had never spent money on it because I didn't see it as a possibility even so it was fine. I was just very into the game and it's gacha mechanics of What If I Will Get To The Island With This Legendary Pokemon And This Time I Will Get It. Now I'm addicted to it like I always was, but the difference is that the game is from the hshop and I got crystals for free. I can now go to all of the islands I wasn't able to because I had a small amount of the rare currency. In like 2 or 3 days I got to rank 25 and I have one legendary pokemon. Suicune my beloved :D I also got my favorite pokemon, wooper, here, look at my child.

When it comes to what I do irl, tommorow there will be mine birthday party for family members, because I go to my friend pliszka for a convention in two days and won't be able to celebrate birthday with family on my actual birthday date (29 of august). I hope it will be fun and hopefully not that stresfull. Also my cat Łapka, who is a little bit of a scaredy and wild cat, came up very close to me today :) She sat right beside me and even touched my legs, because she was grooming Luna that sat on my lap. It was very nice. I love my cats.

It's been months since my last diary entry, again. I should use it more often. I think what stops me from writing them more often is that I'm not completely anonymous on this site. It's very clearly stated who makes it, giving away my social media usernames and also my friends know about this site. So it's natural that sometimes I can't write about my feelings and hard times on here. I'm concidering making a 100% anonymous site for my more personal thoughts. But as of right now, I will try to use this diary more often. Maybe my entries won't be as long as they used to be, but it'll be easier for me to menage. When I don't write for a longer period of time I have too many things I could write about. Concistency in diary entries is what would make it easier for me, but what is really hard for me to. I suuuuck at being concistent with what I do. But we'll see how it'll go this time! I will probably talk about me watching anime and reading manga, because to be honest, I never did it here to a bigger extent because I planned to journal about them in their respectful journals on anime and manga page of my site. But I don't use them! And I think it would be more convinient to talk about them here. Watching anime and reading manga is what I do most of the days. I just don't feel like making multiple journals on my site anymore. Only exceptance is that maybe one day I will make a page for my dream diary. I like thinking about my dreams and sharing them with other people.

Okay, so after I'm done with my diary struggles, I want to write about wplace. Wplace, is a site where you can draw pixelarsts on the map of the whole world. I had a lot of fun playing around on it a week or two ago. Interacting with other people that were making fanart of things I liked and also people that liked what I drew was very fun. It also encouraged team-work, because of limited pixels you could paint before some wait. I painted one thing working with my best friend. What I didn't like about the site tho, is the fact that some people just ruin art of others. One of my pixel arts were added some things on it, but it didn't make me mad because it was funny actually. Pixel art I made with my friend however, was completely erased by other people. I had a worse moment of mental state at that time and it genuinely made me sad. We worked so hard on our drawing! I wonder why is there even an option to erase pixels. I understand painting over things, sometimes there is no place to draw or you want to add something to a drawing. But erasing? It wasn't a good idea to implement something like that on wplace. There are also people who just straight up bully on the site. One friend couldn't finish their drawing because someone decided to 'fix it' and wouldn't stop for HOURS. Well, wplace has it's pros and cons for sure. Sometimes you can't put a stop to human cruelty. Even in 'drawing with pixels on the map the game'. I would share my wplace creations here but don't want to show on what parts of the map I worked on LOL. But to people that know me and painted with me, hiii, it was fun! :) Wplace is still working and all, if you want to play around, feel free to, I encourage it, but I got bored of it after some time lmao.

Okay, my jolly time consuming new-and-not-so-new-for-me-media! I've been watching a lot of things, as always. Mostly through voice chats with my friend but not always. I will focus on what I watch with them tho, because with them I actually finished things, on my own — not really. First of all. I've watched RWBY. I made multiple attempts before to watch RWBY, because my friend LOVES IT. I had hard time getting through the first season, and secound one. But oh my, was it worth it. I totaly understand why my friend is so crazy about it. I am now too. Story is great, the characters... characters are everyting to me. They are amaizing. It was a very emotional watch. RWBY was so good to the point when I had hard time watching something different after, because it wasn't as good as RWBY was. It never happened to me before — this feeling of watching something so good that you can't get over it and your enjoyment of new show is worse. It's crazy to me that I felt it for the first time because of a show I couldn't watch in the begining because it sucked so hard for me. RWBY fans I'm forever sorry for saying that RWBY is ugly and mid, I'm sorry for my sins, you were right all along. RWBY still isn't a thing that changed my life, but man, do I love it. My favorite character is Penny, but I love the main squad and Jaune's squad too. And Crow. And Neo. And like, everyone. But Penny is a little bit above them all. Her story... it's so touching. She's the sweetest. Now all I can do is pray with the rest of RWBY freaks for the next season. Vix don't abandon us. Please give us food. We are starving.

After that hell of a journey, we watched She-ra and the Princesses of Power. First season or two, was a rewatch for me. I remember watching it a few years ago, but pausing it for a bit and never returning. I recently discovered it was in 2020. Watching it again and finaly finishing it was fun. I'm not a big She-ra fan if I had to be honest, but it's a great watch. It's worth your time. Catra is. Catra was writen so well... I love her a lot. She means a lot to me. Author really did her best creating her version of Catra. Last season of She-ra was really nice. I also, obviously, love the yuri. I even drew Catradora as kitties. You will be able to see it some day on the site... probably. My art section is full of dust and spiders. But back to the fanart itself. It made me realize how many people still love Catradora on tumblr to this day. Tumblr is really a go-to place when you want to engage in a fandom of media that isn't new or airing. I was glad to see She-ra fandom still well and alive. This Catradora is my first piece of art that got 1000 interactions on Tumblr, and I try not to think about the numbers that much, but it just made me happy to see so many Catradora fans! Catradora never dies :3!!!

Okay, and to the current days (lol I regret covering longer period of time in a diary once again, it's a wall of text once again)! We started rewatching Naruto. It's a HUGE thing to me. Naruto is an anime that had a huge impact on me. I don't concider it to be the best thing in the world, I've watched and read better stories, but it's still special to me, you know? I spent so much time watching it, obsessing over it. It's first anime I've bought merch of. First sweatshirt, first anime mug. First anime I've done art of because I wanted to hang it on my wall. Time when I watched it was also very specific. I only realized it yesterday, but I started watching Naruto in 2020. And not because of some random reason. I started watching it at some point in March or April. My thought was that, hey, I have so much free time, I'm locked at home, I should watch something BIG. Something LONG. And I picked Naruto. It accompanied me at, objectively, a bad time of everyone's life. Most of my friends didn't talk to me, I couldn't go to school, couldn't go out. All I had is watching Naruto for most of my days. Especialy before online classes started to be a thing. I could also talk about it with other people from warrior cats roleplay that also started rewatching naruto at some point in 2020. Warrior cats roleplay that I'm still on to this day, 5 years later. And in 2020 it had only just open. If not for this roleplay I wouldn't be friends with Pliszka, with whom I am rewatching Naruto today. And I thing that building a connection with new friends on the rp via Naruto was an important thing. It's my core memory. It is important to me. I know exactly what christmas Deidara pfp I had on discord in december 2020. I remember exactly what pfp I had on facebook in 2020 — Naruto holding a cat. I am full of nostalgia towards Naruto. I feel moved when I write about it now. I really haven't realized till now just how important Naruto really was to me. Now I look at my Sasunaru poster and I just... feel a lot of things. My secound journey with Naruto only had begun and I can't help but think about it every day. A lot. I'm thinking about plot that is currently happening during our rewatch but also about the things that are about to happen. They make me emotional once again. I'm not even sure if they don't move me even more than in 2020. I think like I analize more than I did back then. Now I'm full of thoughts about Naruto and Sasuke realtionship. It's just... so complex. And gay. V E R Y gay. [SPOILERS FOR NARUTO & NARUTO SHIPPUDEN IF YOU CARE] And somehow these gay asses still merry women, because of course they do. Even after 500 episodes of Naruto yearning for Sasuke to come back and be his 'friend' again. They relationship is so deep. Deeper than any other relationship in the show. No wonder I turned out to be stupid and fucked up when it comes to realizing what is platonic and what is romantic love, when I watched THESE TWO being so gay and still staying friends. Like, yeah, now I'm just like them I suppose :/ Anyways, we only just begun the rewatch 4 days ago and we are already at episode 31, the chuning arc. I completely didn't remember that Naruto and others thought that Sasuke FUCKING DIED in the first arc. Like how could I not forget something LIKE THAT. It was so funny to me. Now when we entered chuning exam arc, I think about Sasuke a lot. First Orochimaru meeting... was so painful to watch. I didn't like Sasuke in 2020, and to be fair, maybe I will end up not liking him again later. But now? I'm very emotional about this poor kid. Orochimaru traumatized him so badly and I'm left with the memory of it being only a begining. I just... don't want to see it :( I don't want so see Sasuke suffer. I'm also stuck with the thoughts that maybe if not for Orochimaru he could've lived somewhat stable emotionaly. At this point of the story he really isn't that filed with rage and urge to seek revange. He will only spiral into the madness because of Orochimaru. It's saddening. Very saddening. Rewatching Naruto is also time when you look at Sakura, Hinata and almost other women character and think that you could save them. They aren't useless, they aren't truelly anoying. It's the misogynist writing that is the problem. #JusticeForSakura #JusticeForHinata. Also I thing I appreciate older cast of Naruto more than I did when I was a kid. Iruka, Kakashi, etc. Can't wait to see Tsunade ngl. I always liked her. It'll be some time before I'll see her again.

And that would be it for this diary entry. Hopefully next one will be writen soon and I won't feel the urge to write about everything in the god damn universe. There is still a lot of things I haven't writen about but I need to put a stop to this madness at some point. I need to pick one topic next time I swear to god. I will just write that I went to 2 conventions this summer, scored 98% in english and 96% in maths exams, got into univercity for informatics and I'm having a little bit of higurashi and undertale renaissance. CYA. NO MORE YAPP.

Yeah so I ended up not writing diary entries for a whole month, but oh well. It's still more frequent than it ever was.

For first 3 weeks of May I was writing my final exams for highschool (matura exam). It was very stresfull, but I did well! :D First week I had 4 writen exams — polish (literature knowledge for the most part), math, english and advanced english. They all were rather hard compared to exams people one year older than me wrote last year, but it was okay. I didn't like the topics of polish essay, but I wrote it, so it's fine. Next week I had two oral exams! They were what stressed me out the most. I was REALLY scared of polish oral exam, because my polish subject teacher was crazy about it and really freaked me out one time when I started crying in class because of how stressful i was. But in the end, when it came to the REAL DEAL, the real oral exam, not practice in class, it did well! My emotions kinda shut down, probably a defence mechanism and I got a REALLY BAD period on the day of the oral exam, so I was more occupied by the pain than the exam. I didn't even cry when I was speaking! :) I'm really proud of myself, because I'm really bad at handling stress and my emotions. I even got 97% from the oral exam! I lost only one point :D Oral exams aren't really important, because they barely matter when it comes to getting into an univercity, but it's satisfying netherless. My secound oral exam was an english one and I didn't worry about it that much. I got 91% or something like that :p Aaaaaand last week I had the last exam, it was writen advanced polish. Basically a more advanced essay, no other exam taks, just the essay. I don't think my essay was the best, but I don't like the fact that it's a timed exam. How can you write a good essay in 3 hours and half? Without rewriting it a couple of times? I can't that's for sure. But I'm not the best writer, so yeah, maybe that's why it frustrates me.

Okay, so my exams are over! Now I have 4 months of holidays ahead of me! Tehe! I'm very excited. I will have a lot of time for my interests. Rn I'm trying to do an anilist monthly watching challenge in like, a week, instead of the whole month, because of how busy I was and because I was binge watching Grey's anatomy for 3 weeks. I'm watching Clannad! I like it :)! I also got 1st volume of Tian Guan Ci Fu in polish translation, it just came out, yay! I'm somewhere in the middle of it.

I have two female cats and they gave birth to little kittens a little bit over a week ago! They are SO CUTE! My younger girl named Skarpetka/Łapka had 3 beautiful kittens — one with black spots (it's BIG!), secound one that is a blue tabby and a third one that is white (?)(more on it's color later). My older cat (that is mother of Skarpetka) is named Luna and had 4 kittens — two black tabbies and two black solid kittens. They are all so cute and I can't wait for them to get bigger so I can play with them :) Regarding one of the kittens being white — I actually thing it's a colourpoint of some kind? Probably a blue one. And that is because I started noticing that fur around it's nose gets darker and darker with each day! It's a really sweet cat. All of them are! I'm thinking about naming the blue tabby Yuki, because I always wanted a cat with that name and the white one Księżniczka(Princess). I will need to think about names for the other babies. I love them a lot. I don't have any good pictures of them, I will attach one that is rather obscure, but I really want to show them here!! I will def take more, better photos, when they will get bigger.

Okay and last thing I want to metion is that after working on my hair for a while I finaly got a vibrant raccon tail! At the begining I tried doing the pattern with bleach.. but it was really hard! So I bleached the whole strand after that attempt and painted the stripes with black hairdye. And it looks really good! I also did some layers in my hair, because I got hair scizors tehe :3c. That's how my hair looks rn! I died it pink at the begining of the month, but it washed out :p I think about doing green now. I miss having green hair.

In two weeks I'm going to see my best friend pliszka again and attend Pyrkon for the third time! I can't wait!!! I will probably write a diary entry about it :)

Hi!!! Two days ago, I finished highschool! Yay!!! I'm happy that it's over but at the same time I will miss it and I'm a little bit scared of my future and studying at Uni (╥﹏╥) I still have to write matura exam (exam of adulthood, basicaly final exams for highschool that are the most important school exam in polish education system) in a week, but it will be fine. I'm stressed a little bit about polish oral exam, because I stutter a lot and tended to panic in class, when I was practicing it with my teacher (who was horrible). Other than that it will be fine. I don't feel like studying for it tho eeeeh ( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;)

I bought hair bleach after end of the school year ceremony and immidiately used it when I came back home (,,>ヮ<,,) It was my first time bleaching my hair and it wasn't easy but I menaged to lighten a few strands of my hair and do a racoon tail!!! I will have to paint the stripes to be more black, because I applied secound round of bleach a little bit wonky, but I like it!!! I'm black and ginger now, tehe ദ്ദി (ᵔᗜᵔ) I think I will dye the bleached parts red. I'm adding a photo!! Don't mind my huge forehead.

I also have a new sketchbook! I filled my old one to the last page and had to buy a new one. I'm excited because my last sketchbook was giving me an art block LOL. I added a lot of printed out stickers on it with my favorite interests! Here is how it looks like:

Now let's get to my autistic life for a bit. I GOT A VAPOREON KEYCHAIN PLUSHIE FROM POKEMON CENTER JP!!!!!!! It was my first time ordering something from Japan, but Zenmarket turned out to be a very good service. I'm more beyond happy with my vaporeon! It's so cute!!! I love it a lot, I carry it with me EVERYWHERE!!! ( ≧ᗜ≦)!!! I also got an eevee for my best friend pliszka, you can see it in the picture.

I made a HUUUUGE playlist with anime openings and endings on spotify! I always had a youtube playlist with ops and eds of anime I watched, but it started to get hard to use because of songs getting deleted and I had no way to check which videos got deleted. I also use spotify when I'm not at home so I thought it would be handy. So I spent. Around 10 hours. On a playlist. But it was worth it, trust. It ended up having almost 700 songs! I also made a playlist for my favorites. I will link them here: full anime playlist, favorite songs. I will add these links to a resources page or something like that at some point, I think.

i have a lot of fun with watching anime together with pliszka lately. We rewatched Toradora and watched My Little Monster <3 I also watched a lot of pokemon horizons, I want to catch up, because secound part of the anime just started!!!! Horizons got so good with the terastal exam arc, I just love watching it!!! I highly recommend giving new pokemon anime series a go. I think it's even better with a new protag, Ash got a little bit stale in my opinion. I wonder if next pokemnon anime series will also get new protags, I hope so! I love pokemon horizons characters but I would appreciate pokemon giving us new protags with each series.

Getting hacked while I was asleep wasn't on my 2025 bingo.

I went to sleep at 5pm yesterday. It was supposed to be a nap but I suppose my body needed a long sleep after mentaly exhausting 3 days at school. So I woke up at 4:30 am and wanted to go back to sleep, but I decided to check what hour it was.

I look at my phone lock screen. 2 missed calls, 2 messages on messenger and 99 on discord.

Yeah it was something. Someone broke into my discord account and sent god knows how many scam messages. It was so stresfull! But also really funny, because my friend's messages made me laugh. But man. Cleaning this mess up basicaly in last few hours of the night before my bus to school at 6:45am was something.

Sadly my gaming accounts got broken into too. I've got my steam back, which is the most important, because it's the only account I actively use and spend money on. But I'm still working on epic games and ubisoft.

Had to clean my pc to absolute 0, because I didn't had time at 5am. I didn't lost much files to be honest, but it feels bland, anoying and sad a little bit.

I also don't feel good phisicaly. I think I'm getting sick. I'm trapped in the maddness of being healthy for a week and than going back to being sick.

Anyways, yeah, the only time that piracy has failed me!

Still haven't updated the overall look of the journal. Woops. There will be time at some point to do that. Because of that I don't feel like writing here to be honest, but I thought it would be good to give life update here.

I got sick yesterday and had hard time sleeping because of fever today. So I woke up before 7am and after an hour got back to sleep. I've sleept till 3pm. Isn't it great. So yeah I'm dying here a little bit but I hope I will get better tommorow. I want to write a maths test on Thursday. Also I don't want to be sick because I want to go to my friend Pliszka in 2 weeks. I need to be cold free for that!!

Speaking of my friend Pliszka. We meet for New Year's Eve! It was so much fun! We were just hanging out at my house for a few days and it was so so nice. I love them so much. Having friends sure is amaizing. I'm glad we live only few hours in a train away from eachother.

When they were going back home, we spent some time in the city and bought switch games. I got Zelda Breath of the Wild. God is this game expensive after so many years since the release...

Oh and since December to like, a few days ago, I got hit with Owari no Seraph hypefixation. I read 33 volumes of this crazy, mid, bad even, manga in the span of less than a month. It was a wild ride. This manga has every plot twist possible in it, stupid characters and awful pacing. Yeah I love it. I love Mika. Mika my kitten. My meow meow. I'm glad I've finished reading it tho. It was horrible.

I wanted to remake my journal page for over a month now but I didn't had time and I need to write here so we need to work with what we have! Before I will get to my yapping, I just want to notice that my thumbnails on the art page aren't working so woops, I have to fix that tommorow. I don't know why they aren't working but eh, not like it matters right now.

This weekend I attended the biggest convention in Poland - Pyrkon! I participated in Pyrkon last year, but only for one day. This year I spent full 3 days on the convention! I had a lot of fun with the company of my pookie Magda, her friend Oliwka, my dad, couple of my internet buddies and most importantly my best friend Pliszka, that I haven't seen for a full year! It was wonderfull to spend 3 days in Poznań with my loved ones on fun activities. Karaoke was the best as always, I even scored as the best singer on a cruel angel's thesis once!

I had a Rui Kamishiro cosplay in a silly shirt with a ginger cat and burgers. Two people wanted to take a picture with me and I befriended one of them and exchanged instagrams. Oh and I got caled a sigma for having this very sigma shirt I bought in Zakopane when I was 10. I also cosplayed as Rui the next day but I wore a skirt and Evanesence shirt. I wasn't planning to cosplay for 2 days but pliszka cosplayed Mizuki that day so I wanted to match!

We spent almost whole sunday on karaoke lmao it was a lot of fun and we had a little corner with our bags where our buddies Alojzy and Loki sit with us and drew in sketchbooks.

Speaking of sketchbooks! I got A LOT of beautiful sketches from almost everyone I met, I will add picture of it when I will fix this journal site.

I also bought a lot of stuff of course. Other than Houseki no Kuni vol 1 and Chi's Sweet Home vol 1 I also bought two plushies (otter and stingray!!!!!!!!), chinese bell that resembles the one of lwj, and a lot of art! There was a lot of amaizing artists! I will put pictures of the things I bought in this blog too. Maybe I will also put some pictures of me with others but I'm not sure yet!

It was a wonderful expirience and I will miss my friends dearly. Can't wait for next year's Pyrkon but also maybe other ocassion to meet with friends and have fun because I will die of longing. I love my friends, they are my everything.

Oh and uh on the way home I was sketchning for like 3 hours IN A CAR THAT WAS MOVING. And um aparently today I was drawing for 15 hours straight with only breaks for toilet so yeah. That is SOMETHING. I am losing my mind here, unwashed hair, tired, could go to sleep now but my mind is brainroting so fucking hard.

Um hai, it's my first journal entry and I have no idea how to journal online but I will get there!! It seems a little bit different than having a real journal all to myself but it's okay I just need to get used to it.

So today was a very bizzare day. I had a bad time in the morning because my anxiety took over. Thought of a posible war in my country one day made me feel very bad. I try not to think about topics like that because I'm scared enough 24/7 and don't need to feel even more in danger but there are days like that. Everyone talks about posibility of war all the time so it's hard for my brain to ignore sometimes hah.

I was at school as usual and than I was supposed to go back home by a bus. The thing is - we got into a car accident when I was taking the bus. A woman drove her car just in front of the bus so we had a little crash. Also a secound bus drove into our bus. Noone was hurt but the woman run away in her broken car and the guy that drove our bus had to look out for her and call the police. I had to wait for another bus that was an hour later. Luckly enough two girls from my middle schools class were in the bus too so we spend some time together. We got some food and talked about school. This whole accident was more funny than scary. I got home pretty late because of that but it wasn't as bad as it could've been.

I felt really funny after that whole thing tho. Like if I was in an euphoric state. So I ended up watching a movie with my parents and going to sleep to just don't feel weird anymore. It was a very interesting day.