Yeah so I ended up not writing diary entries for a whole month, but oh well. It's still more frequent than it ever was.

For first 3 weeks of May I was writing my final exams for highschool (matura exam). It was very stresfull, but I did well! :D First week I had 4 writen exams — polish (literature knowledge for the most part), math, english and advanced english. They all were rather hard compared to exams people one year older than me wrote last year, but it was okay. I didn't like the topics of polish essay, but I wrote it, so it's fine. Next week I had two oral exams! They were what stressed me out the most. I was REALLY scared of polish oral exam, because my polish subject teacher was crazy about it and really freaked me out one time when I started crying in class because of how stressful i was. But in the end, when it came to the REAL DEAL, the real oral exam, not practice in class, it did well! My emotions kinda shut down, probably a defence mechanism and I got a REALLY BAD period on the day of the oral exam, so I was more occupied by the pain than the exam. I didn't even cry when I was speaking! :) I'm really proud of myself, because I'm really bad at handling stress and my emotions. I even got 97% from the oral exam! I lost only one point :D Oral exams aren't really important, because they barely matter when it comes to getting into an univercity, but it's satisfying netherless. My secound oral exam was an english one and I didn't worry about it that much. I got 91% or something like that :p Aaaaaand last week I had the last exam, it was writen advanced polish. Basically a more advanced essay, no other exam taks, just the essay. I don't think my essay was the best, but I don't like the fact that it's a timed exam. How can you write a good essay in 3 hours and half? Without rewriting it a couple of times? I can't that's for sure. But I'm not the best writer, so yeah, maybe that's why it frustrates me.

Okay, so my exams are over! Now I have 4 months of holidays ahead of me! Tehe >wand because I was binge watching Grey's anatomy for 3 weeks. I'm watching Clannad! I like it :)! I also got 1st volume of Tian Guan Ci Fu in polish translation, it just came out, yay! I'm somewhere in the middle of it.

I have two female cats and they gave birth to little kittens a little bit over a week ago! They are SO CUTE! My younger girl named Skarpetka/Łapka had 3 beautiful kittens — one with black spots (it's BIG!), secound one that is a blue tabby and a third one that is white (?)(more on it's color later). My older cat (that is mother of Skarpetka) is named Luna and had 4 kittens — two black tabbies and two black solid kittens. They are all so cute and I can't wait for them to get bigger so I can play with them :) Regarding one of the kittens being white — I actually thing it's a colourpoint of some kind? Probably a blue one. And that is because I started noticing that fur around it's nose gets darker and darker with each day! It's a really sweet cat. All of them are! I'm thinking about naming the blue tabby Yuki, because I always wanted a cat with that name and the white one Księżniczka(Princess). I will need to think about names for the other babies. I love them a lot. I don't have any good pictures of them, I will attach one that is rather obscure, but I really want to show them here!! I will def take more, better photos, when they will get bigger.

Okay and last thing I want to metion is that after working on my hair for a while I finaly got a vibrant raccon tail! At the begining I tried doing the pattern with bleach.. but it was really hard! So I bleached the whole strand after that attempt and painted the stripes with black hairdye. And it looks really good! I also did some layers in my hair, because I got hair scizors tehe :3c. That's how my hair looks rn! I died it pink at the begining of the month, but it washed out :p I think about doing green now. I miss having green hair.

In two weeks I'm going to see my best friend pliszka again and attend Pyrkon for the third time! I can't wait!!! I will probably write a diary entry about it :)

Hi!!! Two days ago, I finished highschool! Yay!!! I'm happy that it's over but at the same time I will miss it and I'm a little bit scared of my future and studying at Uni (╥﹏╥) I still have to write matura exam (exam of adulthood, basicaly final exams for highschool that are the most important school exam in polish education system) in a week, but it will be fine. I'm stressed a little bit about polish oral exam, because I stutter a lot and tended to panic in class, when I was practicing it with my teacher (who was horrible). Other than that it will be fine. I don't feel like studying for it tho eeeeh ( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;)

I bought hair bleach after end of the school year ceremony and immidiately used it when I came back home (,,>ヮ<,,) It was my first time bleaching my hair and it wasn't easy but I menaged to lighten a few strands of my hair and do a racoon tail!!! I will have to paint the stripes to be more black, because I applied secound round of bleach a little bit wonky, but I like it!!! I'm black and ginger now, tehe ദ്ദി (ᵔᗜᵔ) I think I will dye the bleached parts red. I'm adding a photo!! Don't mind my huge forehead.

I also have a new sketchbook! I filled my old one to the last page and had to buy a new one. I'm excited because my last sketchbook was giving me an art block LOL. I added a lot of printed out stickers on it with my favorite interests! Here is how it looks like:

Now let's get to my autistic life for a bit. I GOT A VAPOREON KEYCHAIN PLUSHIE FROM POKEMON CENTER JP!!!!!!! It was my first time ordering something from Japan, but Zenmarket turned out to be a very good service. I'm more beyond happy with my vaporeon! It's so cute!!! I love it a lot, I carry it with me EVERYWHERE!!! ( ≧ᗜ≦)!!! I also got an eevee for my best friend pliszka, you can see it in the picture.

I made a HUUUUGE playlist with anime openings and endings on spotify! I always had a youtube playlist with ops and eds of anime I watched, but it started to get hard to use because of songs getting deleted and I had no way to check which videos got deleted. I also use spotify when I'm not at home so I thought it would be handy. So I spent. Around 10 hours. On a playlist. But it was worth it, trust. It ended up having almost 700 songs! I also made a playlist for my favorites. I will link them here: full anime playlist, favorite songs. I will add these links to a resources page or something like that at some point, I think.

i have a lot of fun with watching anime together with pliszka lately. We rewatched Toradora and watched My Little Monster <3 I also watched a lot of pokemon horizons, I want to catch up, because secound part of the anime just started!!!! Horizons got so good with the terastal exam arc, I just love watching it!!! I highly recommend giving new pokemon anime series a go. I think it's even better with a new protag, Ash got a little bit stale in my opinion. I wonder if next pokemnon anime series will also get new protags, I hope so! I love pokemon horizons characters but I would appreciate pokemon giving us new protags with each series.

MENTION OF NSFW GAME AHEAD! And last thing I have to share in this diary entry is that... I got a new stupid hyperfixation. My friend introduced me to degrees of lewdity. It's a porn game (¬_¬) And a little bit disgusting, but I am CRAZY about love interests in this game. And crazy, I mean obsessed as fuck about one of them — Sydney. He's my everything. I love him I fear. Calm, religious buy with loooooong strawberry-blonde ponytail save me. Save me. There is also a ton of other interesting npcs and this game has a lot of possibilities and lore?? This is crazy. This amount of options, characters and stories in my game for gooners? Man. I also like that love interests are generated in each save file with different genders, it's cool as hell! There is also a possibility to be trans, I like it. But it's not a game for highly-sensitive people, it has a lot of weird and uncomfortable topics, so please if you want to search it up, please, pleaaase be careful! I will give out trigger warnings here just in case: rape (battle system of the game), gambling, intercourse with animals and monsters, stalking, violance, pregnancy (+ parasite pregnancy and monster pregnancy).

Getting hacked while I was asleep wasn't on my 2025 bingo.

I went to sleep at 5pm yesterday. It was supposed to be a nap but I suppose my body needed a long sleep after mentaly exhausting 3 days at school. So I woke up at 4:30 am and wanted to go back to sleep, but I decided to check what hour it was.

I look at my phone lock screen. 2 missed calls, 2 messages on messenger and 99 on discord.

Yeah it was something. Someone broke into my discord account and sent god knows how many scam messages. It was so stresfull! But also really funny, because my friend's messages made me laugh. But man. Cleaning this mess up basicaly in last few hours of the night before my bus to school at 6:45am was something.

Sadly my gaming accounts got broken into too. I've got my steam back, which is the most important, because it's the only account I actively use and spend money on. But I'm still working on epic games and ubisoft.

Had to clean my pc to absolute 0, because I didn't had time at 5am. I didn't lost much files to be honest, but it feels bland, anoying and sad a little bit.

I also don't feel good phisicaly. I think I'm getting sick. I'm trapped in the maddness of being healthy for a week and than going back to being sick.

Anyways, yeah, the only time that piracy has failed me!

Still haven't updated the overall look of the journal. Woops. There will be time at some point to do that. Because of that I don't feel like writing here to be honest, but I thought it would be good to give life update here.

I got sick yesterday and had hard time sleeping because of fever today. So I woke up before 7am and after an hour got back to sleep. I've sleept till 3pm. Isn't it great. So yeah I'm dying here a little bit but I hope I will get better tommorow. I want to write a maths test on Thursday. Also I don't want to be sick because I want to go to my friend Pliszka in 2 weeks. I need to be cold free for that!!

Speaking of my friend Pliszka. We meet for New Year's Eve! It was so much fun! We were just hanging out at my house for a few days and it was so so nice. I love them so much. Having friends sure is amaizing. I'm glad we live only few hours in a train away from eachother.

When they were going back home, we spent some time in the city and bought switch games. I got Zelda Breath of the Wild. God is this game expensive after so many years since the release...

Oh and since December to like, a few days ago, I got hit with Owari no Seraph hypefixation. I read 33 volumes of this crazy, mid, bad even, manga in the span of less than a month. It was a wild ride. This manga has every plot twist possible in it, stupid characters and awful pacing. Yeah I love it. I love Mika. Mika my kitten. My meow meow. I'm glad I've finished reading it tho. It was horrible.

I wanted to remake my journal page for over a month now but I didn't had time and I need to write here so we need to work with what we have! Before I will get to my yapping, I just want to notice that my thumbnails on the art page aren't working so woops, I have to fix that tommorow. I don't know why they aren't working but eh, not like it matters right now.

This weekend I attended the biggest convention in Poland - Pyrkon! I participated in Pyrkon last year, but only for one day. This year I spent full 3 days on the convention! I had a lot of fun with the company of my pookie Magda, her friend Oliwka, my dad, couple of my internet buddies and most importantly my best friend Pliszka, that I haven't seen for a full year! It was wonderfull to spend 3 days in Poznań with my loved ones on fun activities. Karaoke was the best as always, I even scored as the best singer on a cruel angel's thesis once!

I had a Rui Kamishiro cosplay in a silly shirt with a ginger cat and burgers. Two people wanted to take a picture with me and I befriended one of them and exchanged instagrams. Oh and I got caled a sigma for having this very sigma shirt I bought in Zakopane when I was 10. I also cosplayed as Rui the next day but I wore a skirt and Evanesence shirt. I wasn't planning to cosplay for 2 days but pliszka cosplayed Mizuki that day so I wanted to match!

We spent almost whole sunday on karaoke lmao it was a lot of fun and we had a little corner with our bags where our buddies Alojzy and Loki sit with us and drew in sketchbooks.

Speaking of sketchbooks! I got A LOT of beautiful sketches from almost everyone I met, I will add picture of it when I will fix this journal site.

I also bought a lot of stuff of course. Other than Houseki no Kuni vol 1 and Chi's Sweet Home vol 1 I also bought two plushies (otter and stingray!!!!!!!!), chinese bell that resembles the one of lwj, and a lot of art! There was a lot of amaizing artists! I will put pictures of the things I bought in this blog too. Maybe I will also put some pictures of me with others but I'm not sure yet!

It was a wonderful expirience and I will miss my friends dearly. Can't wait for next year's Pyrkon but also maybe other ocassion to meet with friends and have fun because I will die of longing. I love my friends, they are my everything.

Oh and uh on the way home I was sketchning for like 3 hours IN A CAR THAT WAS MOVING. And um aparently today I was drawing for 15 hours straight with only breaks for toilet so yeah. That is SOMETHING. I am losing my mind here, unwashed hair, tired, could go to sleep now but my mind is brainroting so fucking hard.

Um hai, it's my first journal entry and I have no idea how to journal online but I will get there!! It seems a little bit different than having a real journal all to myself but it's okay I just need to get used to it.

So today was a very bizzare day. I had a bad time in the morning because my anxiety took over. Thought of a posible war in my country one day made me feel very bad. I try not to think about topics like that because I'm scared enough 24/7 and don't need to feel even more in danger but there are days like that. Everyone talks about posibility of war all the time so it's hard for my brain to ignore sometimes hah.

I was at school as usual and than I was supposed to go back home by a bus. The thing is - we got into a car accident when I was taking the bus. A woman drove her car just in front of the bus so we had a little crash. Also a secound bus drove into our bus. Noone was hurt but the woman run away in her broken car and the guy that drove our bus had to look out for her and call the police. I had to wait for another bus that was an hour later. Luckly enough two girls from my middle schools class were in the bus too so we spend some time together. We got some food and talked about school. This whole accident was more funny than scary. I got home pretty late because of that but it wasn't as bad as it could've been.

I felt really funny after that whole thing tho. Like if I was in an euphoric state. So I ended up watching a movie with my parents and going to sleep to just don't feel weird anymore. It was a very interesting day.